My Get Up And Go Has Got Up And Gone

So, I know these are strange times and so we have to get used to feeling strange, because, well, the world seems to have turned into some groundswell of I don’t know what.

The only word I can find that sums up how I feel is strange (I’m not getting into the whole ‘unprecedented’ malarky as it’s way too much! – even if accurate)

And throughout this whole strange situation I have been feeling fine. Or rather I was feeling fine.

Up until the last couple of days.

And I can’t say what happened, as to my knowledge, nothing in particular happened, but I suddenly became aware: I have lost my motivation.

And maybe this is a normal thing, I don’t know, because I’ve always been such a motivated person to do anything. But now I’m finding I feel rather out-of-sorts and everything has become a drag.

I don’t normally share stuff like this and I don’t know if I should be sharing, but I guess I’m doing this because I don’t think I’m alone in this onset of gloom. And it really does feel like an onset of gloom.

I’ve told myself maybe it’s the weather? – it’s now cold and wet and pretty grey and so that doesn’t help.

And I don’t think not doing much is conducive to doing much.

And the idea of momentum popped into my brain.

I looked it up on google, and I got this:

What does it mean to have momentum?
Momentum can be defined as “mass in motion.” All objects have mass; so if an object is moving, then it has momentum – it has its mass in motion. … Momentum depends upon the variables mass and velocity. In terms of an equation, the momentum of an object is equal to the mass of the object times the velocity of the object.
And it made me realise when you’re doing stuff, doing other stuff is way easier – because you’re a ‘mass in motion’. When you’re not a mass in motion, it’s an awful lot harder to move the mass (especially given I’m suffering the weight-gain associated with too much lockdown bakery involving learning how to make the perfect apple pie).
So I texted my friend and I said: ‘I’m feeling low and bored. I can’t stick to anything and I’ve lost my focus.’
She replied yada-yada how this time will pass and all the rest of that tripe and then she sent me another text saying: write an article on the personal aspect of lockdown.
I curled my lip and sneered at her suggestion and thought FFS what a crap idea. That’s going to make me feel worse and why should I depress everybody else (along with myself) about how crap I’m feeling right now.
But then bizarrely, just moments later, the phrase: My Get Up And Go Has Got Up And Gone popped into my head.
And I found myself sitting my ass down and writing this.
I have no idea if this has been of any help to you, but to me, well, it proved a point. With encouragement I can do something. I did do something: this post is the proof. It may not be much, but it’s something – and we all have to start somewhere.
I have put myself in momentum again, and if google is to be believed, a mass in motion is a mass in motion, and given I have a lockdown booty (!), maybe this mass will stay in motion for a bit longer 🙂
Sending out over-sized positive vibes to anybody else feeling a bit glum x

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